Your roles and masks keep you from knowing your true self and control you like a marionette puppet whose strings and the hand controlling them you can not see. I invite you to take away the curtain hiding the controlling beliefs and thoughts and recognize your true self, make conscious choices from your heart, and use discernment. This allows you to take control of your life.
How can we understand ourselves if we are living from our shadows, our masks, and the roles we play? When we suppress our negative self and resist working with it, we are digging ourselves a deeper hole separating us from our divine self. We are then unable to truly express our divine self because we are spending so much time and energy suppressing a part of ourselves, and in doing so, suppressing the whole of us.
How about connecting with our inner observer, our Higher Self and start observing, healing, and integrating our shadow, and subconscious aspects, so we can get to know ourselves, understand ourselves and our subconscious beliefs, and learn to be our best self? Remember, life is a journey of self-discovery and mastering ourselves, so I invite you to have some love and compassion for yourself on your journey of understanding yourself.